Fredericia Musical Academy

Okai so before I was kinda down for a while but now my head has been lifted towards the sky and all I see is the sunny sky above and all I hear are the birds singing from the tress and everything is just lovely (even though it's kinda raining outside) and it's all because I have gotten a chance to study for a week at the Fredricia musical academy and in case it dosen't speak for it self it's a whole week in the summer vacation where I'll have the chance to practice dance, song and drama and take a peak into what could very well be my future if i'm lucky ;)

the reason why I'm so happy is that drama, musicals, music and everything close to that is my life and it's the only thing I really wanna do with my life so getting a chance to study here I mean come on ! so awesome!! especially considering that this academy has been sai to be just as good as Broadway in NY ;D
God really hope I get a spot! Love to ya' all!

When everything is lost
You're propably expecting me to talk about some movie or song with this titel well to bad cause I simply ain't going to.. and I know what comes now might be a bit depressing but hell I just need to get it out and since nobody's probably reading this blog anyway I won't have to worry about being spammed or turned in so to say..
so here it is.. one year ago I had what feelt like everything; friends, lovely family, talents only I had (and thereby I feelt special) and I didn't even have to make an effort for people wanting to be around me which btw is not something I've been very familiar to before and so school ended... I lost all my friends in a blink of a second people I had considered my family gave up on me and I gave up on them because I was to stupid and damn proud to admit anything else than it only being there fault.. my family got more and more seperated as months went by growing with a big hole between filled with everything we just don't say to eachother and to top it all off my great grades that had just been so good, good enough to brag about went falling to the ground and I honestly started hiding my results away from people.. and now here I am about to enter the second summer vacation where I have nothing else to do then just sit at home and go to work.. no travelling no friends and maybe not even that much family time either to make up for all the lost time since my dad ironicly enough is going to England with another family ... I mean his work...
so yes I'm feeling sorry for myself and I know I really don't have the right to so what if I now go to a school with only a small hand full of friends and people who actually don't mind talking to me.. so what if my family spend more time apart then we do togehter.. well even though I probably shouldn't feel sad I bloody damn will anyway I am sick and tired of people telling me what I can and can not do or what I should and should not do.. IT'S MY LIFE! I should be the only one who got to decide those things.. and now aprove or don't but now I am feeling sorry for myself.. I feel like giving up on everything turning into a big lump doing nothing but smoking ciagrettes and being angry and cooky towards the world.. I dont know the way I feel right now I just wanna give up on everything and if I had the courage I would probably disepear I know it dosen't sound like much to be upset about and I know that a lot of people have way bigger issues to worry about then this.. but I don't know I can't explain it I just feel so damn helpless and alone and nothing I do or say will ever be good enough so I guess the way I'm thinking is why even bother saying or doing anything at all right ?

Hello people out there..

So listen, I know I play a lot of music for you all the time, but since my dad is kinda like the biggest music geek ever it has kinda rubbed off on me. So I thought that I once again would share an awesome new song I just discovered ... well it probably isn't really that new and of course I didn't really discover it, but anyways.. here it is and well hope you like it I for one sure do! ^^

Just thought I would share some good music from my swedish roots ;) Enjoy!